Wednesday 3 April 2013

so...where to now

lighting my life with this match
matching my life to this game
gaming my life with this bet
betting my life with you is pain

why are you so blind to this
is it so i can see?
you cant be true
its all false prophecy
and remarkably so so wrong
so so easy to see
just leave me to be
ME
PLEADING PLEASE

just leave me alone
to fix the mess im in

^^^^^^


to take it all back
and make it on the right track
but its to late to look backwards
towards pasts i wish to hide
moving on and forward

would i choose again love, or so i thought it was
instead of successes i was due to reach
?

i used to teach and listen to their love qualms
and wished i had a love myself
so i thought it was love when attention came by
yet it was just my desire to be in love
that has caught me in a life so so wrong

^^^^^^


many looks as i leapt
across the stepping stones
falling in the end before reaching solid ground
if only..if only i had taken careful steps
so so sweet it all could have been
and i would not be drenched
in this endless sea of disappointment
and depressive emotions

^^^^^^


so far to go
it wont go on forever this way
not so far to a happy day
even though the skies are grey
i see with sight
so far to go

so im holding on to
a happy day

^^^^^^


promises i cant keep
making us weep
change is a choice
that can only happen
if u choose it to be
something to change

^^^^^^


im counting
im walking
in the park of pretending
and patients all at the same time
im searching
im returning
in the sea of honesty
and silence all at the same time

this is my life
i take my vow in my hands
and reach to the lord
not a single man

this is my life
i take the bow out of my hair
and reach in opposite directions now
not a little girl

this is my life

^^^^^^


so six steps forward
and twenty back
tracking time
bending till im broken
to satisfy you
and be whats makes you contented

nothing ever could be so clear

mean but no means to stand by
hand to hand mouth to mouth
u think ur my guide and saving light

i have a spiritual place to look for guidence
Known as GOD

so take it away and add it all together
what am i trying to say here
nothing could ever be so clear

these streets are clear
make tracks
i dont want to live in fear
that my being is not good enough
for YOU

in my soul i laugh at that
in my mind i cry at that fact
my being is good enough
for me and in the eyes of those who do love me

so dont tell me i have no personality
if u dont like me as a person
leave

if i bore you...dont expect me to change
to fill ur expectations of what makes a person u will enjoy time with
go and find a person whos time you do enjoy
im not going to be molded by ur plan

^^^^^^


lighting my life with this match
matching my life to this game
gaming my life with this bet
betting my life with you is pain

why are you so blind to this
is it so i can see?
you cant be true
its all false prophecy
and remarkably so so wrong
so so easy to see
just leave me to be
ME
PLEADING PLEASE

just leave me alone
to fix the mess im in

^^^^^^


so where to now
and whats next












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